How do I explain?
I don’t know what you want to know. You ask
if I’m better like I broke a leg and I’m walking
with crutches. It doesn’t work like that. Today
I feel tired, but yesterday I was over the moon.
I don’t know why I feel this way. God knows
what it’ll be like tomorrow. I can only hope it won’t
be dreadful. This isn’t like healing a broken bone
or a runny nose, you know? The best analogy I
can give you, is the British weather. If moods
were weathers… I can experience all four in the
same day, or the space of a week. I can only
hope that the British wintry days become rarer
and the exotic tropical island days become
the norm. I don’t know what it is to be
better and wish people stopped asking.